I have one.

Spiffy.

The last two weeks or so have been... ridiculous, to be honest. Slammed left and right with one thing after another to say the least. Work crisis, money crisis, family crisis, medical crisis, vacation(lack thereof) crisis. And I know that this too shall pass. Change is the only constant. When it rains it pours.

But *honestly*. I haven't even been able to spare a second for sanctuary via the Timelords these recent weeks - and that's really the worst part. For a while there it felt like I could start to break back into livejournal & fandom-esque things -- with *Who*, the king of kings where my list is concerned. Here's to hoping I can break this seemingly endless string of craptacular issues and occurences. It'll be okay if I can regain my footing emotionally and mentally, since there's nothing to be fixed at this point. I really hate that my mobile broke, though. I'd wager that was the final blow after Dad having ankle surgery, drama at the bookstore, financial strain because of the disastrous trip the b/f and I took last month- which left me incapable of visiting my best mate *next* week and forced me to cancel on really precious plans. I'm nauseating myself just listing that, actually. Stopping now.

New Doctor Who in April and apparently writing on versaphile's beloved persiaverse has started back up. The generous bits and pieces snowgrouse has offered up have kicked up anticipation yet *another* notch. It shall be pure bliss. Still, to be honest, I'm happy just to be able to start reading again. I intend to make up for lost time if I'm allowed it, and as much as I'd missed the whole process? I actually hadn't fully realized just how much I needed the company, the exchange between people so consumed and full of adoration for these characters. It's been a bit since I've dared to comment -- even if only to leave much deserved feedback on some of the epic work that's been my saving grace for a long while now. I'm glad things are changing and I want to get back to posting normally again, sharing thoughts on the number of times the Master molested Ten in EoT, and RPing.

Nnnnngh, RPing. I love RPing. At this point though, even this entry has helped me feel a lot better. I declare this streak of clusterfuck over. Nowish. That'd be good. I have to go work a mid in 45 minutes. Simply brilliant.

Just made it back alive from a 3 day road trip that was much more exhausting than I was hoping it would be. Blargh.

But I don't think I've ever grieved my lack of fanvid abilities quite so much as I do now, over a song so perfect for Ten up to the point where he regenerates. God, I can't quit listening to it. I know every single scene and it's placement alongside the lyrics. It's fun to entertain just in my brain, I suppose, but honestly.

'Nothing Gets Crossed Out' by Bright Eyes.

It's an old favourite of mine, actually, but when I heard it on my iPod this evening... everything froze and I was hearing the Doctor. His innermost fears, secrets, reflections. LKSDFJDSKJF damn my lack of any significant real skill.

Vid with song and lyrics,at any rate:



Might go back in and break down what I see in each line, but just had to put this down and get it out of my head for now: Also, 'Poison Oak' Totally had a taste of that 'regretful Doctor remembering his younger years with the Master and how many things went wrong that could've been different' flavour. The idea of that -- its bitter tang resonates in certain lines of Poison Oak.

Uprising by Muse needs a EoT-centric-fanvid now. Right now. Undisclosed Desires was instantly a Doctor/Master song the moment I bought the new album and heard that track for the first time, so it deserves attention too.

Okay. Just had to put that down. Done now.

I'm in no way new to lj. My past experience with it just dissuaded me from going near it for the past couple of years.

The time has come, the walrus said, to return. I needed somewhere to post fic, if I do end up wanting to like I've wanted to so severely this past month, and joining communities is nice too.

So yeah. That's my reasoning. And my first post

Here's hoping there's many more to come.